We found out from an Ultrasound that our almost 10 year old Jaxon has a tumor on his left kidney. The only sign we had was noticing how much more water he was drinking. We took him to a Specialist yesterday and had more blood work and a CAT scan done. She called me to tell me that he was having some internal bleeding so surgery was not an option. She really wanted us to let them put him down while he was under anesthesia. I had minutes to make a decision. He was fine when we dropped him off so we had no idea there was the possibility we would not see him alive again. I made the best decision I could. I told her not to euthanize him. We where not allowed in the building due to Covid so we could not see him or be with him when he passed. I could not live with that. I told her we wanted him to be in our (his) home where he feels safe when transitiones and we can be holding him and loving him when it happened. Today he is eating and drinking and acting like himself. I know there's no hope of him surviving this and every second we have with him now is such a gift. i do not want him in distress or suffering. When he passes, I want him to be at peace. I need to remember him that way. I just don't know when to say it's time. I've always heard they will let you know because they will stop eating and drinking. My gut feeling is that doing it too soon would be better for him than doing it too late but its hard to imagine doing it when he is acting like a healthy dog. Any words of wisdom?