Wishing everyone a very merry Christmas. Today marked the first Christmas without Callie, the love of my life. The busyness of the day made it more tolerable but it certainly hit me like a ton of bricks when we went to take our traditional family picture including my mom's dog and brother's dog and our families in front of our Christmas tree. And here we were without my baby. I "included" her in the pic by holding one of her favorite stuffed animals, which I happen to carry around wherever I go still, as we took the pic. Its been 5 months since we lost her and I know many probably think its silly that as a grown adult, that I carry her "baby" with me whenever I leave the house and sleep with her. It makes me feel close to her. My heart still aches every day. We have all been longing for another golden and are currently on a waitlist for a future litter and I pray and pray this will happen soon. No one will ever be able to replace my Callie but I long for a void to be filled. Thanks to everyone on this forum who have been supportive to me and help me search for the right breeder. And Merry Christmas to all of you, your families, and your pups.