[Chris J]

I can't believe a month has passed already since Rosie went to the bridge.

It all happened so quickly .I have really struggled to cope these last few weeks.
and haven't been able to post here until now.I'm still too upset to post pictures of her.

We were all so looking forward to Christmas this Year .My wife had given birth to her third and my first baby in May.Baby Isobel and Rosie had got on so fine together.It was wonderful seeing Rosie snuggling up to her when she was laying in her cot on the floor or Rosie lying on her back and smiling as Isobel attempted to stroke her.

I got home from work in the morning from the night shift and my wife had told me she had collapsed and couldn't pick herself up about half an hour before I arrived

Her head was tilted to the side and her eyes were making this horrible spinning pattern.We rushed her to the vets and he said she had had a massive stroke or their was a brain tumor plus her heart was beating so so quick.

Their was nothing he could do so we had to let her go at 12 and a half.

She had been fine the day before running around on her walk with her head down a rabbit hole for 10 minutes trying to flush the rabbit out.Next day she was gone.

My wife and I blame ourselves now,because we had noticed the last few months she had been getting the odd spasm in her head but she never seemed to act any differently.So we didn't think too much about it because of her age.

But its beating me up now.What if I had taken her to the vets in the months before she left us on Dec9th.Maybe the vet could have found something,because it's obvious to us that those spasms caused her to pass away,despite what the vet said.

I'm finding it hard to live with our decision not to take her to the vets.I don't think I will ever get over it:no::no:

 

[coppers-mom]

Please don't beat yourself up over not taking her to the vet. I was told Copper had cancer that had metastasized and he was gone less than 48 hours later. Yep - seemed fine the night before and just collapsed that morning. He went to his regular vet just 16 days before and was given a good checkup. He also went to specialists and a holistic vet regularly.

I am so sorry you lost Rosie and especially so fast and unexpected. It hurts so much and it takes a long time to recover, but time is a great healer and I hope soon you will be able to remember all the fun and love you shared with just a little tear.

 

[Laurie]

Welcome to the forum.

I am so sorry to hear of Rosie's sudden passing. Please don't blame yourself. Many of our beloved Goldens leave us with little or no warning.

We would love to hear more about Rosie and to see some pictures of her.

 

[Karen519]

Chris

Chris

Please don't beat yourself up over it. It is very possible that there would have been nothing they could do to fix Roxie. Your girl would want you to forgive yourself and love, again.

We lost our Samoyed, Snobear, literally overnight, froim hemangiosarcoma and he acted fine until the day we took him to the vet. We could have had surgery, that might prolong his life for a month, but we didn't think it was fair to put him through that, so we let him go.

 

[patrice]

I am so sorry for your loss of Rosie. Please do not beat yourself up. I am so sorry that sometimes such illnesses strike without warning. My sweet Buddy had been ill for two months, still his last days came without warning, and he fell ill quite suddenly. I know that it is hard for you now. I have been were you are. You were doing your very best with every day that you had with Rosie. In time, you will see that more clearly. Again, I am sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[Oaklys Dad]

Very sorry for you loss of Rosie. It is just so hard to lose an innocent creature like a golden. I'm sure she would have been a great role model for your daughter. I Hope you will be able to open your home to a new golden puppy soon so your daughter has a pup to grow up with.

 

[GoldensGirl]

Welcome to the Forum. I'm so sorry very sorry for your loss. This is one place where everyone knows that losing a beloved dog is a terribly painful event. I hope you'll stay and share stories about Rosie when you're up to that.

It is clear that you loved Rosie dearly and I'm sure that she knew that. I hope you can find some comfort in knowing that she is free of pain now, though you are hurting badly.

American playwright Eugene O'Neill wrote this beautiful piece for his wife after the death of their beloved senior dog: The Last Will and Testament of Silverdene Emblem O'Neill.

Some favorite passages might be helpful to you:
" I ask my Master and Mistress to remember me always, but not to grieve for me too long. In my life I have tried to be a comfort to them in time of sorrow, and a reason for added joy in their happiness. It is painful for me to think that even in death I should cause them pain. Let them remember that while no dog has ever had a happier life (and this I owe to their love and care for me), now that I have grown blind and deaf and lame, and even my sense of smell fails me so that a rabbit could be right under my nose and I might not know, my pride has sunk to a sick, bewildered humiliation. I feel life is taunting me with having over-lingered my welcome. It is time I said good-bye, before I become too sick a burden on myself and on those who love me...

"One last word of farewell, Dear Master and Mistress. Whenever you visit my grave, say to yourselves with regret but also with happiness in your hearts at the remembrance of my long happy life with you: 'Here lies one who loved us and whom we loved.' No matter how deep my sleep I shall hear you, and not all the power of death can keep my spirit from wagging a grateful tail."

 

[Dakotadog]

The groomers found a tumor on Dakota's stomach last june. We immediately took her to the vet and she got surgery soon after. The tumor was cancerous and we put her down September 18th.I can't imagine what would have happened if the groomers didn't find that tumor. It was low on her stomach and not a place that was often prime belly rubbing. I am so happy that we got the extra 3 months with her. Don't beat yourself up, Rosie was probably ready to go to the Bridge and you were lucky to get 12 and a half years with her.

 

[PrincessDi]

So sorry you lost your girl Rosie so suddenly. Goldens are a stoic breed and they can be very sick without our knowing. Had you known that she was ill, it is possible there was little that you could have done. I'm so sorry for your heart ach. When you are able, please share the things about Rosie that made her such a special girl.

 

[Buddy's mom forever]

I am so very sorry for your loss. It is very hard, I know. I lost my Buddy 8 months ago and I am still thinking "what if" going back in the years... But it is meant to be the way it was.

 

[C's Mom]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't beat yourself up. Second guessing ourselves is indeed part of the grieving process but be good to yourself. You gave your girl 12 wonderful years of love and she you - that is what is important. Sending you and your family strength.

 

[Sandy's Momma]

I too, have just lost my beautiful 13-year-old girl Sandy, four days ago. She had what sounds exactly like happened to your Rosie, but my vet diagnosed it as vestibular syndrome, which mimics a stroke. Her head was tilted to the side, she couldn't stand up, and she had flickering of her eyes. I am trying to take comfort in the fact that she isn't suffering, but i am selfish and i want her back. I have cried every day since Sunday when she got sick.
Please don't beat yourself up, i really don't think there is anything you could have done differently.
I can't give you any other words of wisdom because I am, and the rest of my family, are grieving right now. I joined this forum to help me through the grief. I know that in time it will get easier, but right now i'm a wreck.

 

[PrincessDi]

I too, have just lost my beautiful 13-year-old girl Sandy, four days ago. She had what sounds exactly like happened to your Rosie, but my vet diagnosed it as vestibular syndrome, which mimics a stroke. Her head was tilted to the side, she couldn't stand up, and she had flickering of her eyes. I am trying to take comfort in the fact that she isn't suffering, but i am selfish and i want her back. I have cried every day since Sunday when she got sick.
Please don't beat yourself up, i really don't think there is anything you could have done differently.
I can't give you any other words of wisdom because I am, and the rest of my family, are grieving right now. I joined this forum to help me through the grief. I know that in time it will get easier, but right now i'm a wreck.

I'm so sorry that you lost your girl Sandy. When you are ready, please start a thread for your girl in the Rainbow section. It is so painful to loose them and it does help some to write about them. Sharing keeps them alive and allows us to get to know her. Most of us have lost a special Golden and understand the heartache that you're going through.

 

[Sandy's Momma]

Thank you so much PrincessDi. I will start a thread and talk about my favorite girl, very soon. Will also post pictures. Your words are a comfort to me.

 

[Buddysmyheart]

I am so sorry for both of your losses. It seems we are all missing our beautiful boys and girls. We lost Buddy on Nov. 26th, and we are still grieving and missing him terribly. I also second-guessed Buddy's last few days, and if we should have done something differently. But with time, you will get some perspective, and realize that both Sandy and Rosie had people that loved them dearly, and did the best they could. Talking here on this forum with people that have gone through similar circumstances does help and comfort. Keep sharing your stories, they help all of us...

 

[goldensmum]

Welcome to the forum, but I wish it could have been under happier circumstances for you.

So very sorry for your loss of Rosie, it is always a shock when we lose them so quickly. I hope that you will stay around and when you are able to share stories of your lives together

Sleep softly Rosie

 

[Chris J]

Thank-you for all your kind words.It is a great comfort.

Still devastated by Rosie's passing especially when it seems she might have had vestibular syndrome as her symptoms match it completely ,and many dogs go on to make a complete recovery.

Still think of her contantly day and night.The worst pain is coming home in the morning from work with tears flooding down my facing knowing their is no more wonderful welcome waiting for me at the door.

 

[CAROLINA MOM]

I think the first few days, weeks, then months are the hardest. It'll soon be a year for me that we lost our boy-it still hurts. We miss him, think of him everyday, wish he was still with us. We were blessed to have had him in our lives for 15.5 years.

I try really hard not to think about the what ifs or what I should have done, it makes it that much harder and I try not to remember him during those last few days, but of all the years he was with us.

My thoughts are with you, hope time will ease your pain and loss.

A few weeks after we lost our boy, I adopted a young golden boy from my County Humane Society. We weren't really ready for him, but my golden girl who is a former puppy mill momma, was grieving and starting to regress. She needed to be with another dog ASAP. My new boy helped so much, he brought joy, love, and laughter back into our lives and home, and brought my girl out of her shell.

We see a lot of our old guy in Remy, of course you can never replace one dog with another, they are each so special and unique in their own way, and will forever hold a special place in your heart.

I hope that one day you will be able to open your heart to another Golden love.

 

[Karen519]

ChrisJ

ChrisJ

Praying that someday you will open your heart to love again, Rosie would want you to be happy.

 

[grn2806]

Sorry for your loss. We just lost our Golden named Sydney on Sunday morning and it is the hardest thing I've ever been through.
I know how it feels to get home and not get that greeting we are so use to.
This site has been very good therapy for me. Everyone is so nice and gives great advise. Keep coming back, it does help.