Oh my Mattie, waking up again without you once again, and finding it harder to do every day.. I had my first dream about you last night .. wish that had comforted me instead of makes me yearn for you and miss you even more .. Feeling so guilty this morning for every thought, and everything I did and didn't do. I don't know what I'm going to do without her .. she was my shadow, the ever presence in my life each second of the day.. heart is so heavy and breaking this morning ... I know she is safe and healthy, but I miss her so bad ... I often think about this quote from Little Women... "If life is often as hard as this, I don't see how we ever shall get through it".. I find myself worrying what the next loss will be .. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers today, as I will all of you that are grieving too ..