Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: Lancashire, England
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I know - One Day at A Time
My grateful thanks to all who are posting and supporting me once more as I travel this difficult path. I can't tell you how much this means. I had to call in sick yesterday as I couldn't bear to leave him. I've got two days off then I will have to return as being a nurse you usually go in no matter what. My sister lives in another town and keeps telling me I can't be with him 24 hours a day, I know, but the thought of leaving him is awful. Is there anybody out there who has had to leave their seizure dog alone at times ??
I was woken this am by Kai barking, he seems to be doing this a lot more. He used to be a quiet boy. He is also whining/crying quite a lot, and nothing I do seems to help. He comes straight up to me, I try everything I know, cuddles, play, or toileting, but nothing seems to work. Then out of the blue he lies down and chills. I'm finding this new behaviour challenging, and yes, I feel useless.
Well it's now late afternoon, Kai is sleeping, but I find myself watching his every little move and wondering if every twitch or stretch is the start of another seizure. I'm frightened to leave him and go upstairs. I feel I can't do anything, just watch him. I'm sure my behaviour is not normal !! My life as I knew it has abruptly stopped, I'm getting more depressed and full of sadness about things by the day. Doug, thank you so much for remembering me and my beautiful boys. This episode is taken me back to that terrible time when I lost them both with days of each other. It's so very kind of you. By the way your Lexi, Hudson and Tia are absolutely gorgeous, are they still with you ?
Your suggestion of cutting out the 'middle man' is a thoughtful suggestion, but the hospital where the Neurologist is based is some distance away. Then there is the financial situation. I just hope my insurance will pay out, as being single, my income isn't great, and I've had to use credit cards to help me out :-(
For the time being I'm happy to accept the Neurologist's advice via the vet, this way there is no cost, but if it comes to it, I may end up having to take him there.
I broke off my post as it was getting late.
Well last night Kai had his medication as per vet's instructions, and then it was a case of trying to get some sleep, which wasn't very successful as my virus is still keeping me coughing for periods through the night !! However, he seemed to have a better night and today he seems a little better, still wobbly and ending up spread-eagled when he loses his balance. I think he has forgot he can't turn on a penny any more.
I have continued with the instructed dosage, at the advised times, though the vet has said in a week he will have blood taken to assess if he is in the therapeutic range. If so and if the seizures are under control, she has said to try and reduce the Pexion, as he is on a large dosage. But that's a way off and I'm taking things day by day.
Something that is worrying me is his behaviour. I still can't understand how odd it is, he used to be such a quiet boy but now he seems to be much more naughty and the whining or howling are very strange. I have to go into work tomorrow and as you'd expect, it's an early start so I need to give him his medication a couple of hours earlier, I'm just hoping this wont upset him.
Well I'm sure you've heard enough from me, thank you for reading and again all your support.
Just thought if attach a cute photo of my little boy.