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Four years ago today I listened to my Buddy’s last heart beat. His heart, beautiful, loving, golden heart was slowing down and then it stopped. It was silent…at peace.

It is not a day I remember it is the day I will never forget. That day changed everything, brought the emptiness and silence into my house and shattered my heart in a thousand little pieces. I thought it is impossible to put them together again not that I really cared for it. I only wanted to go back in time, months back and then stop the time so it never comes the moment for two of us not to be together.
It took me long time, better said years, to create a new realm and new normal. Many of you here helped me to get there. And I know I made many friendly mad, who wanted just to give me a good shake and pull me out of my sadness. But you were all loving and caring, walking with me slowly and patiently when I needed you the most. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, I will never forget that.

My Buddy is my heart dog. Loving Buddy is like … loving a child, the soulmate and the best friend all in one amazing being. It is a kind of love you feel with whole your heart and you will never forget. It brings you joy and fullness that makes this world a perfect place to be. It is strong, deep and endless, a true blessing to feel that love.

My Buddy is always with me…in my heart, in my thoughts, in every song I listen to, in every poem I read, in every walk I take with my Charlie, in a bright star on the sky above, in the first snowflake melting on my palm. He is in a sweet ladybug, in a yellow wild flower, in the wind, in a raindrop on my window and in silence.
My Buddy is in these tears slowly rolling down my face right now.
But still… I would give everything I have, to see my Buddy one more time running to me with a big smile on his face, just to give him one more hug. I know it is too much to ask for and it is silly too but still on breezy days while warm air is gently touching my face I close my eyes and I am waiting for my Buddy to come running into my hug, I am waiting with my arms wide open.

My sweet, sweet Bud I miss you so much and love you forever. Please remember what mammy has always said “wait for me Buddy, mammy will come back”. And I will be back to you…

Those past four years I shared with you my love for my Buddy and my sorrow for losing him. I want to share my favorite lines from the poem written by

Lord Tennyson:

God gives us love. Something to love
He lends us; but, when love is grown
To ripeness, that on which it throve
Falls off, and love is left alone.

You know it has been four years but still hurts looking at his pictures especially because many of them are “real” pictures that I can touch not just images on computer screen so I will post again one of my favorites,

just a two of us

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Hi V
I love the picture, it says it all. Abby and Lilly and I are proud to be there with you like so many on this forum. There are no words that help when you lose a heart dog. Im glad Charlie came into your life to help ease the pain a bit. We send much love and hugs to you guys.

Mike, Abby and Ms Lilly

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That is the sweetest picture. The bond between you two is very obvious. I am sorry for your loss and it sounds to me you feel about him how I feel about Jake. I have lost other dogs and it is never ever easy--but Jake--IDK--he was a whole different story. Maybe it is because I am older now, maybe it is because he was there for me during the empty nest syndrome of life, maybe he really is my soul mate dog. I am just glad to have found this forum because there are people here that truly do understand. It is comforting! Thank you.
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I am so sorry for your loss. You story made my cry. For several reasons. Our own Buddy, and I can't think of a better name for a boy golden, came in to our lives at the age of 3 months, 3 weeks before Xmas. He was a present for my 10 year old twins. It was a challenging time and I had underestimated and forgotten the amount of work puppies bring. Buddy was a big biter/scratcher with the children.. many tears.. he was clueless on potty training and decided it was easier just to poo where he wanted in the house then eat it to hide the evidence, he was hysterical in his cage and left me wondering what I had done. Then on Xmas day I fell over him on the 4am pee outing and broke my leg badly.

I was told to expect to be in plaster for at least 3 months. As a single Mum I am alone and I simply could not take care of him whilst in a wheelchair and then crutches. Buddy went back to the breeder. I was if I am honest, slightly relieved at the time. But of course my children were beyond heartbroken and after hearing my daughter sob herself to sleep I worked out a plan with the breeder, my neighbours, a paid dog Walker etc and 6 weeks later whilst I was still on crutches we had him back again. Poor Buddy, he was traumatised.. he had been separated from his Mum and siblings twice. But I was determined to make it work and now at only 9 months we already can not imagine our family life without him. He is sweet, settled, happy and loving. So having read your moving tribute to your Buddy I know that we made the right decision to work through the tricky early months and I know he will give us many years of love God willing. Buddy was Lucky to have you as his Mummy. Maybe in time when you have finished grieving your heart will lead you to another golden. Peace be with you.
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A love that is never forgotten

I read your posts and saw the picture of you and Buddy, I know that bond and I also know that the love of a Golden is unique and never forgotten. It is only 2 weeks for me and I so feel him near me, feel him lick me. Crazy thing is my cat has NEVER licked me and in the past few days she licks my hands when I go to pet her on her tower and it is as though her big brother said, "Take care of MOM!"
I know I will feel the same as you do in 4 years. I do believe that my Brody taught me so much about love and life, sadly about death.
I have been a single mom for almost 15 years, Brody was my constant for 10 1/2 of those years and, sorry guys, was the best guy I have ever had in my life! He loved watching football with me, was my daughters best fan at soccer games, was a college roommate at times, a great paddle buddy and my life just will never be the same. He once sat so still while my exhausted daughter slept in the front of the canoe and we paddled 14 miles down the Shenandoah river....he was only 4 then and loved the canoe from the beginning!
I have always, since I was born had dogs in my life, I have had many I was close to but none like my Brody. I never imagined ever owning a golden, he fell into our lives and will always be a part of me.
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brodybond--I am so sorry for your loss. I can feel your pain as it is much like my own. 2 weeks out is such a short time--but 2 months out feels like yesterday as well. Your pictures are awesome. Brody reminds me of Jake--Golden's are the best. I can tell that Brody was your best friend and I know how hurt and lost you feel right now. It gets a little easier every day but I have my doubts that it ever really gets easy when you lose that soul mate dog. I hope in time you are able to welcome a new friend into your life. I hope to do the same in a few more months. I do worry that a new puppy will never compare to Jake, but at the same time I also know that I will love him for him as soon as I am able to hold him and get that special look from him that will be his and his alone. Your in my thoughts.
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Brodybond I am so sorry for your loss of Brody and katynick I am very sorry for your loss of Jake.
My heart hurts reading your posts as I understand how you feel. I felt the same pain at the time I wrote my first post on this thread. It was my sad introduction to this forum 5 weeks after I lost my Buddy. Grief is a natural response to loss. And losing someone you love so much is painful. I do believe that grief for lost balances love we have for them. That’s why some losses are so hard.
As it says in my favorite quote from The Lord of The Rings "How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand... there is no going back? There are some things that time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep, that have taken hold."
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Happy 14th Birthday dear Buddy

Today is my Buddy’s 14th birthday, 5th at The Bridge. Can’t believe it has been so long. My heart is hurting again.

Wind is blowing snow outside and your little brother Charlie is zooming around backyard like crazy. Backyard used to be your snow kingdom. So much changed since we celebrated your last birthday together, nothing is the same.

Happy Birthday my baby, hope you have nice snowy day at The Bridge today and many friends to celebrate with you.

Love and miss you forever.
Your mom

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I guess the hurt never stops does it. What a handsome boy!!!!!
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Happy Birthday at the Bridge, Buddy!

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Happy Birthday at the Bridge gorgeous Buddy. I hope you and Barnaby have become friends. Your mom is such a special person who has been so very kind before and after my boy went to join you and all the other wonderful dogs at the Bridge. Send her a special sign soon Buddy I know that will make her smile x


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