I thought this may be easier to write as a letter to Henry; so many people know of him, and I want to share some of the great times I had with my little Hen. Henry, a special little boy, who made me realise how capable I am of giving myself completely to someone... A lot of you know that wasn't enough, but I know that most of you support what I did and understand that I always, ALWAYS had Henry's best interests at heart.
Dear Henry
It has taken me weeks to feel even a tiny bit strong enough to share our memories on this page. I love you. Always have, and always will. Our time together, yet so short, was so special and taught me things about myself, and of course dogs, that I may never would have know before.
When we brought you home, Richard uttered the famous words I will never, ever forget: "This little boy is gonna be no trouble at all."
That actually makes me smile, and there were so many times we referred back to these words and laughed, and in a good way. You were, and still are, so special, so quirky and so very unique. You were with me during the most difficult year of my life and I miss you everyday. Many wonder how that is possible because of some incidents, but I never made the decision I made for me, I did it for you. It took me a really long time to see I was keeping you on this earth because I needed you, and yet I feel at peace sometimes knowing that you'll be so much happier, and healthier where you are.
There were so many signs little Hen, but listening to your heart is the most important.
I've never loved, and love, anyone like I do you. It took me about six months before I would let you off lead; I was so worried about you. I even made sure I could outrun you in case anything happened. You were such a gutsy little guy in the house, stealing things and swallowing anything you could get your mouth on; but outside, you were apprehensive and needed protecting.
Whenever you were scared, you would jump on my knee and shake. It makes me sad to think you came to me when you needed me, but couldn't trust me - psychology and wiring is something I may never understand. The one and only time you rested your head on my knee was so special, it was so rare for you to be affectionate and I think back to that time quite often. How I so wish things could have been different. Sitting here typing this, I would love to have you by my side, for you to be the kind of dog you would have wanted to be. I really, really, really wish things could have been so different Henry. I'll never wish for anything like I wish for that. I will remember the good and I hope you know how much I did for you, how much I give up for you, that I loved and took care of you just like I would my very own child.
I love you
Always will xxx
Dear Henry
It has taken me weeks to feel even a tiny bit strong enough to share our memories on this page. I love you. Always have, and always will. Our time together, yet so short, was so special and taught me things about myself, and of course dogs, that I may never would have know before.
When we brought you home, Richard uttered the famous words I will never, ever forget: "This little boy is gonna be no trouble at all."
That actually makes me smile, and there were so many times we referred back to these words and laughed, and in a good way. You were, and still are, so special, so quirky and so very unique. You were with me during the most difficult year of my life and I miss you everyday. Many wonder how that is possible because of some incidents, but I never made the decision I made for me, I did it for you. It took me a really long time to see I was keeping you on this earth because I needed you, and yet I feel at peace sometimes knowing that you'll be so much happier, and healthier where you are.
There were so many signs little Hen, but listening to your heart is the most important.
I've never loved, and love, anyone like I do you. It took me about six months before I would let you off lead; I was so worried about you. I even made sure I could outrun you in case anything happened. You were such a gutsy little guy in the house, stealing things and swallowing anything you could get your mouth on; but outside, you were apprehensive and needed protecting.
Whenever you were scared, you would jump on my knee and shake. It makes me sad to think you came to me when you needed me, but couldn't trust me - psychology and wiring is something I may never understand. The one and only time you rested your head on my knee was so special, it was so rare for you to be affectionate and I think back to that time quite often. How I so wish things could have been different. Sitting here typing this, I would love to have you by my side, for you to be the kind of dog you would have wanted to be. I really, really, really wish things could have been so different Henry. I'll never wish for anything like I wish for that. I will remember the good and I hope you know how much I did for you, how much I give up for you, that I loved and took care of you just like I would my very own child.
I love you
Always will xxx