I'm having a hard time finding an outlet to talk to about my girl. People are understanding around me but they don't want to keep hearing about Magic all time. (And I'm not talking about GRF.) But what I really want and need is to just talk to her, and put into words whenever I need to, how I felt, how I feel, how I miss her. I want to share what is going on in our life now as I would if she were standing by my side. I know there are countless others out there who are grieving the loss of their babies and are afraid that they will be forgotten in the hustle and bustle of life.
So with this thread please feel free to talk directly to your babies, tell them what you need to tell them as many times and as often as you need to. And know that so many of us feel this with you. I hope this provides many of us with some healing and a place to be heard whenever we need it.
Oh, Sonora. Today I miss your dainty little wrists (so ladylike and darling) and your long, floppy ears (the rest of you just never grew into your ears). Last night I asked Daddy what he misses most about you at the moment. He replied that he misses the talking woof that you would do every so often. It was so beautiful sounding. Yesterday we took Wags to the vet for this lumpy thing that's been growing near her chest. Thank God it's just a lipoma (that's vet-speak for a fatty mass that is not dangerous). We were so relieved. We hated taking her to the vet because it's the same place where the three of us said good-bye to you in May. Last week Daddy and I went to Hawaii. All the way out there on the big airplane I was looking out the window for you, to see if you were out there flying right by our side. I know you were there. You're with us wherever we go now that you have wings. You're our beautiful angel dog. You can go wherever you want to now. We will meet you at the beach in a few hours, sweetie. Going to take Wags and Corona for an ocean swim. Can't even say that word in the house, "ocean." Their ears twitch and perk up and they start to go nuts. Just like you did, my love. I'll never forget our first ocean swim together. Down at Laguna Beach. Seems like yesterday. I love you. I miss you. You're the best dog there ever was, and I know we'll meet again one day at the bridge.
This is our first Birthday without you, it's going to be a hard day for us. You use to enjoy your birthdays so much,we're going to miss celebrating it with you today.
I'm sure you found Grandpa and he's singing Happy Birthday to you for us. We're going to try and Celebrate your life today-we had 15.5 wonderful years with you, just wish you were still here. It's so hard to believe you've been gone 6 months now. In many ways it seems like it was only yesterday but in other ways, it seems like it was a lifetime ago already.
We miss you, think about you everyday, love you Red Dog.
Tell Grandpa hello for us, tell him we miss him and love him too. I know you're taking care of each other.
My precious boys (Jakie, Petey and BoBo) I was talking to my dear friend today about all the fun we use to have walking at Dana Point Harbor. We laughed and cried and thought about those special times. All of our boys that went with us are at the Bridge and I know you are all playing together. I miss you so. Time may help me get through the days but you know what--the pain is still there. I love you.
My Sweet Sophie - I miss you sooo much. I keep looking for you and hoping you will come back to us. Every day when I leave work I drive by Mounds pet store where we spent so much time. My drive home then turns into thoughts of you as the tears stream down my face. I drive by the place where we took you swimming. I drive by the streets we used to walk. I drive up the driveway and look at the window hoping your nose will be looking out back at me.
It's only been 7 weeks and I am still struggling with all of the "firsts" without you. Tomorrow we leave for a trip. It is killing me that I won't be packing your bag for your weekend at "Camp Grandpa". I used to get so upset knowing that we would have to leave you for a few days so you'd think this would be easier on me. But my morning routine preparing to leave is going to be so hard without taking you to my parents.
We are on the list for a new puppy, but I just can't figure out if that is the right thing to do. Am I betraying you? Will I love him/her as much? Is is too soon?
I miss our snuggles on the couch watching t.v. and in the morning. I love you and miss you and will never forget our time together.
I know how you feel. Moving on is hard and we continue to wish for what can never be again. I miss my girl so much but I will be forever grateful that I was the one who got to love her and raise her. No dog could ever replace her but there is always room for another in your heart. Sophie would want you to be happy again and to share your special places with your new puppy.
I am still waiting for the day to come that it's easier. It's been over 3 months, and I still cry and miss her many times in a day. My new students, last year's fourth graders, asked me about when I was "crying at school last year..." today. I had been sitting on the stairs by the back/side doors, talking to the oncologist in Madison, hearing the bad news (there was nothing that could be done). Those students saw a very hard moment.... As I talked a little about it, I could feel the tears starting and the lump coming into my throat. I showed them a slideshow of pictures to introduce myself to my new students - Of course, no introduction would be complete without pictures and a few words about "my Sophie." She's still SUCH a part of who we/I am. I miss you, sweet girl.
It's been hard for me too last couple days. We had bad storm last night, very bad storm, I woke up for moment (or maybe I did not) to see Buddy curled up next to my bed, and was back to sleep knowing he is ok. Today I cry a lot.
It will be a year in October that Teddy has crossed over to the bridge. I still can't believe it's been that long. I remember that day like it was yesterday. Sadly I think it will always be etched in my memory.
In bed last night, I hung my arm over the edge of the bed. That's where Teddy would have been before I would fall asleep, trying to get those last few cuddles. Then he would move under my table and sleep all night. I miss waking up to him barging in my room, wanting to go for a walk, or just wanting cuddles.
When I look at pictures of him, I still can't believe he's gone. I miss him every day.
Custard,
There are too many crusts in my life. When i trim the crusts off the bread for sandwiches you are not here to have them.
My heart aches so much. I miss you so much.
I dread the day after tomorrow when Miller goes back to school and I will be alone in the house for the first time since you died.
The thought overwhelms me and makes my eyes fill up with tears.
Custard I miss you and I love you.
Forever yours,
Sarah
xxxx
Sam, Just one year ago tonight you suddenly seemed so very tired. You laid on your dog bed all evening and just didn't want to get up. You just seemed so tired. When it was time to go out, you couldn't get up so daddy carried you outside to go potty. We carried you upstairs and daddy and I laid by you until you seemed to settle. We tried to stay awake with you but we both fell asleep. When we woke up, you were having trouble breathing and you died with us holding you and telling you we loved you. We miss you so much. You were our sweetest boy and our soulmate. I feel so guilty about falling asleep and pray that you did not suffer or wonder why I wasn't helping you. You had been sick so many times your last year and we had always managed to bring you back from the edge, but this time was different. We knew you had the mass on your liver and with the vet had decided to not pursue a diagnosis because you were too fragile. I know we did all we could but I still wish we could have done more. I am so sorry we made you take all those pills when you got pneumonia over and over. You never complained, though you didn't like to take all those pills. I bet they didn't make your tummy feel good. I hope you are having fun at the Bridge. Thank you for sending us Quinn and our new puppy. You will always be my Sammy dog. I love you forever sweetboy. Rest in peace.
so sweet...... I've been thinking about Frazier non stop these past few days. Holiday weekends are hard, because the natural thing is always to have Frazier be part of them. Even with the happiness of a new and very energetic pup, I miss the quiet calm and nap time with Frazier. Everyone has a soulmate. He was mine. Frazier could anticipate my every move, my every emotion, my every everything. He knew how to love me when no one else could. He knew how to stare at me in silence and speak volumes with his eyes. I smile at all the craziness that Tucker provides, and his sweet baby kisses, but even now, 9 months later, I miss Frazier's kisses, and nose nudgies. He was my Bud, My Boy, my Therapist, my BFF. I always used to lay with him at night on our big bed before Hubby would shut the house and I would always tell him that we were " the original married couple" as Frazier was mine before I met my amazing Husband.... lol. Frazier would flop his big luscious heavy tail in agreement of this... I miss his sweet snores, his crazy dreams, and howls, his tip toeing down the hallway to his breakfast bowl. I miss his soul, my one and only. My Frazier. <3
Sammy, When daddy and I were tearful tonight thinking about you, Quinn came and licked our tears away. We keep saying you are sending her memos because at times it seems like she knows just what you used to do. Looking at pictures of you, I keep wishing I had more of you in the last few years. You were such a big fluffy guy. You were so beautiful to us. Love you so much Sammy dog.
Such a lovely tribute. What a handsome and sweet-looking boy. I can feel the love in your words, I have no doubt he could feel them immensely every single day.
I did laundry last night, some cloths not used in while, there was my bathrobe birthday present years ago, not very cheap, Buddy chewed the hole in it on the side where my heart is. I fixed it then, took me 10 minutes to do that. But I still don’t know how to fix the hole left in my heart after his leaving or will be able to fix it at all.
Buddy's Mom Forever, your words say it all. I don't think I will ever feel that the hole in my heart is healed. Maybe it isn't as painful, but it is still there. Best wishes and hugs to you. I hope Buddy is running with my Sam at the Bridge.
Sam's mom, your Sam was a beautiful boy. Your words talk love and I can see how much you miss him. And his eyes, such gentle soul, are full of love. Love never dies, your Sam is sending you his love back thru Quinn it is for sure. Hugs to you in this difficult time.
Yesterday was 6 months since I had to let you go. How I still miss you and your precious face. If only I could hold you again for just a moment.........
Jazz is doing well with little Maverick. It took her a few weeks to relax around him. I would laugh every time she had that look of terror on her face when he jumped on her. I am sure you were too knowing she was getting what she deserved after she did that to you. Maverick is such a sweet boy, thank you for helping him pick us as his new family. I love and miss you more than words can say.
Magic looks so happy in his pictures. What a joy he must have been. Thanks for this thread, it is a great idea! Sending you comforting thoughts. Was he also a Dichi golden?
Thank you for your kind thoughts. Magic was an amazing dog. Of course we all feel that way about our pups but I think she truly was special. Yes she was a Dichi dog as well.
I love the picture of Magic in the Halloween costume and I am going to look at the pics of Jazz and Maverick now.
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