Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: Lancashire, England
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Hi guys, sorry not been to forum as much recently. I'm having a bit of bad time with personal stuff, job etc. I hate to admit this, but I've even feeling pretty low. I went for a job interview, i hate them ! !!!! even though its only a temporary position but still made me feel awful.
Prior to going this morning I was overcome with tears for my boys, it just came out of nowhere. I'm so fond of 'not so little now' Kai, but for some reason I found myself just sobbing. I love my boys so much, I keep thinking they were here this time last year, and I was shopping for their Xmas pressys. It never entered my head they wouldn't be here now, they both seemed so fit for their ages. They're in my thoughts constantly. I feel a little guilty towards Kai. He's 6 months and in the full throws of 'puppyness'. He's really starting to push his boundaries and I find myself saying, I'm sure Fluke and Harry weren't so mischievous, though they probably were.
I'm hoping this immense sadness of my boys passes. I thought I'd managed to accept all that happened,but looks like despite the new addition, I've had a setback. Could do with some words of wisdom people :-(