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Everyone grieves differently. Everyone has their own timeline for grief as well. Some people are fine within a few months, others take several years. The only time I would be concerned would be if it's been years and you can't function. It's only been a few months for you. What you're experiencing sounds perfectly normal to me.
There are whole days that I don't remember from right after my mom passed. That is also perfectly normal.
One thing I learned when my dad passed - if I tried to pretend I was fine, denied how I was really feeling, it just made it worse. So I bawled my eyes out in public a couple times - had to leave a store because they had a huge display of M & M's - and I always bought them for him. I broke down in a store when the song - How Will I live without You came over the loudspeakers.
There are probably still people around who talk about the crazy lady sobbing in the grocery store and pushing people out of the way to get out of the store.
It's normal. You're gonna get through it. If you hadn't loved her so much, you wouldn't hurt so much.