Then today missing my Mom hit me like a ton of bricks!! I was scheduled to work tonight and called in sick. The thought of walking into work, the same hospital my Mom died in caused me to have what I think was a panic attack. I miss her so much!!

I'm sorry you are having a bad day. I found that it does come in waves like that. I'd be doing better and then all of a sudden BAM! Wish I could make it better for you.

I am so sorry!
My brother died suddenly of a heart attack last January.
It still hits me like a ton of bricks at the worst times like driving into town and I have to push it down to concentrate on traffic, or when I try to go to sleep. I still cannot believe he is gone and I miss him so much! His death was unexpected and sudden.

I know it will eventually get easier. I lost my mom when I was 22. I still miss her, but it has been 28 years and I have beautiful memories and pictures. I can still see her when she was healthy and smiling. My mom died of breast cancer at the age of 55.

Hang in there.

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Christa

I think there is a limit to how much better we can do, at least if we really loved someone. Several months after my mother's death, I was deeply depressed - to the point that I started taking antidepressants. It took a couple of years for me to reach the point that I didn't need that support.

Have you thought about maybe getting some help in coping with your grief? That might be a good idea since it is reaching the point of disrupting your ability to do your job.

Holding you in my thoughts and prayers,
Lucy

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I am very sorry, will keep you in my prayers.

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I agree with Goldensgirls--perhaps you should be asking for some help. You've had a really rough time. It does take time to get back on an even keel, you just don't want all other aspects of your life to be damaged while you are doing that. Sending good thoughts your way...

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Everyone grieves differently. Everyone has their own timeline for grief as well. Some people are fine within a few months, others take several years. The only time I would be concerned would be if it's been years and you can't function. It's only been a few months for you. What you're experiencing sounds perfectly normal to me.

There are whole days that I don't remember from right after my mom passed. That is also perfectly normal.

One thing I learned when my dad passed - if I tried to pretend I was fine, denied how I was really feeling, it just made it worse. So I bawled my eyes out in public a couple times - had to leave a store because they had a huge display of M & M's - and I always bought them for him. I broke down in a store when the song - How Will I live without You came over the loudspeakers.

There are probably still people around who talk about the crazy lady sobbing in the grocery store and pushing people out of the way to get out of the store.

It's normal. You're gonna get through it. If you hadn't loved her so much, you wouldn't hurt so much.

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I'm so sorry daddysgirl. Our moms are so precious and I can only imagine how tough this is on you. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you. (((HUGS))).

Daddysgirl

I am so very sorry-My heart goes out to you!
I know what that FEELS LIKE!!
Please let us know you are alright!!

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SMOOCH at the Bridge.
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Glad I am not the only one known as a crazy lady When I was on vacation after my my Mom died, I'm sure alot of people thought I was Crazy as I talk to Mom all the time, nothing like seeing a grown woman talking to herself, but really talking to her Mom!