Thanks for the continued prayers, everyone. We need them.
Hi, I am brand new on this forum and saw your messages. My 13 year old golden retriever started having seizures on December 6th. We took her to the emergency clinic and they found a mass in her abdomen/spleen. They kept her overnight and we brought her home the next morning not knowing if she would have another seizure or not. She also had started having trouble with her back legs about a year ago. I thought it was arthritis but now I'm thinking it was brain related. I stayed with her for 2 days and then the 3rd night, I held her steady until 1am while she tried to do circles in the house. Her back legs kept giving out on her but she was always a determined girl. She did end up having a bad seizure at 1am and collapsed. We took her again the clinic and decided to send her to heaven. At 13, we couldn't operate and we suspected cancer/brain tumor. This was the hardest thing I ever went through. I started to read through this forum and have found it comforting somehow. I know I am not alone and please know you are not alone.
I'm so sorry you had to go through this. Charlie's spleen was removed about 5 years ago with a benign mass on it, weeks after I lost my Sabrina to kidney disease and cancer, and I feared that Monday's ultrasound would show that he had developed new tumors. I was prepared to let him go if that had been the case.
It is possible that he has brain tumors, but we don't see evidence of that. My best guess now is that the very low thyroxine level is causing his seizures. If so, we will get that under control soon. And then we'll see.
My big sweetheart continues to tell me that he enjoys life, which is the reason I am willing to keep fighting for him. He eats with enthusiasm (as he always has) and loves watching wildlife from the back deck. He tries to play with our young pup and he is still interested in tennis balls, though we just roll them for him. And he is insatiable when it comes to cuddles.
So we take things one day at a time and I try to manage my emotions around Charlie, releasing them through writing here.
Many thanks for all the words of support. It makes a huge difference.