I am so touched. Thank you for guiding me to the candles. And thank you for the exrta good wishes and support.

I am definitely trying to live by my own words to others here - to remember Tesia doesn't know she is sick (though she must have some clue as she has been poked and prodded and in vet offices nearly everyday for the past week). But I need to just be positive and happy around her, and help her have the best life, however long or short it might be. (I just made myself start crying again. It doesn't take much right now).

Thank you.

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Tesia
"Joy and loyalty wrapped in sunshine."
The Laughing Dog Press

Sept. 21, 2000 ~ Feb. 5, 2013
My sweet, joyful, beloved heart.

I am so so sorry to see this new discovery. It seems that you have access to a wonderful vet team who will do the best to give Tesia every quality moment that she deserves. I see great hope in that.

You mentioned how happy Tesia is and I wanted to share the one thing that I learned from my girl immediately and seize on whenever I'm feeling angry/frustrated/sad.

No matter what, she is LIVING with cancer, not dying from it. Until her last moment, she'll be living. I'll make every effort to honor that and live in that moment with her too. Some people think that it's just semantics, but it's not. She lives for every moment gifted to her and I in turn work to live for each moment gifted to me. It's hard to focus on at times, but I truly believe that was one of the greatest things she was meant to teach me. No matter the time frame they give me with her cancer, each and every moment is a gift.

I hope she is able to come home soon - I know how quiet things are when they must spend the night away. Use this time to allow yourself to recover from the shock. Do research/reading, cry as much as you need to, lean on the forum for support and write down every question that comes to mind. ((((Big Hugs)))

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Part 1 of Hannah's story - Cancer diagnosis - - - - Part 2 of Hannah's story - grab bag of health issues

The VEC just called. Tee did well overnight, but there is a lot of discharge from the wound, and she needs to stay there at least another day and overnight. They had to change the bandage overnight (it makes me feel so good knowing she is being cared for 24-7) and they actually fed her at midnight and she ate all her food. My house is so lonely without her. I'm going to be able to go visit her in a few hours. And they said I can actually call at any hour to just see how she is doing. That will be good if I am awake all night again tonight worrying.

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Tesia
"Joy and loyalty wrapped in sunshine."
The Laughing Dog Press

Sept. 21, 2000 ~ Feb. 5, 2013
My sweet, joyful, beloved heart.

Thank you. I think I am going to print that out so I can read it everyday. It is so true and so important to remember. She has been an absolute gift to me so I do owe that to her, too. I have treasured every moment of the past 12 years, and I will treasure every moment to come.

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Tesia
"Joy and loyalty wrapped in sunshine."
The Laughing Dog Press

Sept. 21, 2000 ~ Feb. 5, 2013
My sweet, joyful, beloved heart.

I a glad Tee had a good night and was well taken care of. There are not many goldens that would not enjoy a meal at midnight. Enjoy your visit with her, I am sure she will be thrilled to see you. You are at a wonderful institution and Tee will get the best care available. However, I am sure you can't wait to get her home. It is amazing the difference in a house when your dog is not there.

Hoping Tesia heals up quickly and can come home to you very soon. I will be keeping you all in my thoughts as you go through this journey. My best to you.

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Vicky, mom to Ruby-5 years
Birthday 9/1/07

Oh gosh, I am so sorry that Tesia has to go through this.
All of us tread the "C" word and so many of us have to deal with it or had to deal with it. Me included.
I am glad that Tesia is doing good and I am sure she is in great hands and the vet team will do their best for her.
Keeping her in my thoughts!

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Thunder Dachsi Toby




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My Toby, my heart dog 3/12/2003 - 3/30/2013, I miss you Toby!


Christa

I'm glad she is being well cared for, but so sorry that she isn't able to come home today. On my way to light a candle for sweet Tesia and you and praying that she can be back home tomorrow. Also praying this Oncologist is able to buy much more sweet time for Tesia.

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Great post. I would like to add I never focused on the time lines given. I flat out refuse to think that way. Doesn't mean I don't go outside and cry.

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Thank you. Hearing "six months" last night was akin to ripping out my heart. My mind started racing to what we would never do together again. I'm going to decide right now that she is going to defy all the odds. Six months is only the average.

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Tesia
"Joy and loyalty wrapped in sunshine."
The Laughing Dog Press

Sept. 21, 2000 ~ Feb. 5, 2013
My sweet, joyful, beloved heart.