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I miss my Buddy

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#1 ·
I visit this site very often but this is the first time I want to say something. I want to put together some words for my Buddy, my beautiful golden retriever, my boy I lost 5 weeks ago. These are the hardest days in my life.
It all started nine and half years ago. I did not want to have a dog in my house, did not know very much about dogs, mostly have been scared of big ones. But my ten years old daughter at that time, big animal lover, wanted a dog and she wanted golden retriever. My husband did not listen to me and they brought Buddy in my life. And next to my daughter it was the best thing ever happened to me, although I did not know that then. Slowly with days passing by Buddy became my dog. When I cooked he was next to me waiting for his share of veggies, when I vacuumed he would laid down on the vacuum hose, when I sat he had his head on my lap, when I cried he would pet me with his paw, at night he would sleep on the floor next to the bed on my side, in morning he would wake my up as it is food time, when I leave at work he would be at door to get his "see you later Bud" threat, when I came back he would wait for me with his nose stick in the closet with our shoes. And then after nine and half years after tough battle with terminal illness for a couple months I lost my Bud on May 15th. I lost the best friend I ever had, lost someone to talk with, someone to walk with, someone to hug with... My heart is just broken, can't stop crying, my life is frozen in a time. I still see him everywhere, can feel softness of his coat under my hand, his happy face and the tail waging at time to go for walk, his touch with his big paw was so gentle. And pain is unbearable. I read your stories and cry with you as your pain is my pain now.
I love you Buddy.
 
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#2 ·
First, welcome to the forum. I'm so sorry you have found this forum as so many of us have after loosing a beloved golden. I know full well the physical pain you are feeling after the loss of your Buddy. I found this great forum under similar circumstances many years ago. Please share pictures and stories of your boy. This group really does UNDERSTAND.
 
#4 ·
I am so very sorry. Your words will hit very close to any of us who have had a heart dog and felt lost when our friends leave us. Our individual pain and hurt are our own. Know that in that you are not alone. I found shared heart and hope when I lost my Bailey at the age of 12 in October. It was the second time in my life I understood how a heart could heart and ache with loss - Celebrate that he is near you and each moment he brought you joy. Soon, soon he may visit you in your dreams and be healthy and happy. My boy did for the first time last night - I thought it wouldn't happen. It did. Blessings and peace to you~

Julie (and Bailey's mom forever)
 
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Just wanted to let you know we all know what your are going thru and how terrible you feel. I miss my Billie Jean so much, she left us on Apr 21st. I think of her every day and would love to have her put her head on my lap like she did so many times. Miss playing ball with her when she was well. Hope you feel better in time also. Mausann
 
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This is just beautiful. You were blessed to have such a good and loyal friend and he was blessed to have someone love him as deeply as you did. Have you seen Harold and Maude? I think it's wonderful that you opened your heart to love him that much - but as Maude says, "Go and love some more." Your next best friend will be luckier to have you for having Buddy in your life. It sounds like he rescued you - perhaps, you should return the favor someday in his honor. When you look into the eyes of your next best buddy, you'll both know it. I hope you find the strength and peace to find a second love and friend. Hugs to you.
 
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This is just beautiful. You were blessed to have such a good and loyal friend and he was blessed to have someone love him as deeply as you did. Have you seen Harold and Maude? I think it's wonderful that you opened your heart to love him that much - but as Maude says, "Go and love some more." Your next best friend will be luckier to have you for having Buddy in your life. It sounds like he rescued you - perhaps, you should return the favor someday in his honor. When you look into the eyes of your next best buddy, you'll both know it. I hope you find the strength and peace to find a second love and friend. Hugs to you.
The pistures of him in the pool remind me of my Dakota and Casey! My neighbors son would always swim with Dakota and Casey.
 
#12 ·
I'm so very sorry for your loss. I just lost my sweet Sophie girl on May 18. The pain is unbearable at times. My heart and prayers go out to you.
 
#13 ·
Buddy's Mom

Buddy's Mom

I am so very sorry about your precious Buddy. So many of us know your pain and loss. Your post about Buddy is one of the most beautiful and honest tributes I have ever read.

I really hope you hang around this forum, we have all been through this or are still going through this and we try to be very supportive. Nobody can empathisize with you like another dog log.

I hope in time when you heal, you will open your heart to love another lucky dog-you certainly have such love and devotion to give!
 
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#14 ·
Welcome to the forum from a fellow Canadian.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your Buddy. Your tribute to him was beautiful.

I lost my Golden Phoenix 2 years ago at the age of 8 and my 11 year old Reno was just diagnosed with hemangio. Both have devasted me.

Please share some pictures of Buddy with us when you can.
 
#15 ·
I am so sorry for you loss of Buddy. I hope you will find peace and comfort in the days to come knowing Buddy is in heaven, pain free, happy and waiting for you to join him.

I can tell from your words that Buddy was a very special, wonderful boy and very much loved.


There are so many of us here that know your pain and fully understand what you are going through. I am one of them-I lost by boy four months ago, still working on getting through the days without him.

Hugs to you, when you're ready I hope you'll post pictures of Buddy, it helps.
 
#16 ·
I'm so sorry for your loss of Buddy. I'm in tears reading your post about him, because your words are clearly straight from your heart. We lost our Di on 5/21 to hemangiosarcoma. It really feels like though your daughter was the one that wanted Buddy, he was meant to come into your life to help you. I'm so sorry for the heart wrenching pain, but hope that in time all the love and happy memories that you and Buddy shared will bring a smile to your heart through the tears.
 
#17 ·
Hi guys,
I want to thank you all for your support and words of comfort.
I attached a photo of my boy. Every morning and every evening I go thru photos and cry. And then I go thru the day just waiting, expecting, crying...
I wish I could hug him just, just one more time.
 

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#18 ·
What a handsome guy your Buddy was...I am so very sorry for your loss. I also know the emptyness and hurt you are feeling. Its so very hard to lose one of our beloved friends. Time makes it a bit easier and you will be able to think of him and not cry.
Im glad you found us..most all of us know jhow you are feeling.
For me the day I got my next golden friend was the day I really felt better. I will never be without a sweet golden by my side...there is something very special about these dogs...
again, Im so very sorry for your loss
 
#27 ·
Your tribute to Buddy is beautiful and heart felt. I too lost my golden boy Whiskey 4 weeks ago today at age 12 years 8 months and 13 days, after 6-weeks battle with illness. I never truly knew what "gut wrenching" and "heard broken" felt like until that moment. I am also going through all his pictures and putting together a tribute of his life story, it is slowly coming. I find just having a goal to complete something helps channel my grieve and gives a purpose.

I came to this forum when Whiskey was gravely ill. I have received tremendously support from everyone. It is amazing that a group of strangers can care so much!
 
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