I'm so sorry for your loss, what a wonderful tribute in your "Letter from Josh". Sigh, they leave such memories and I hope that those wonderful thoughts will give you comfort....
I like this line ...
" I stamped my paw print in the lives of many, left their lives knowing they were better for having known me... "
Rest easy Josh...
Interestingly, I am getting feedback from friends and family that they too LOVED that line!
It was exactly one week ago (almost to the minute!) when I actually discovered that he had passed away. It was not sudden - by the same token, it wasn't expected when it did happen. If that makes any sense. In the back of our minds, I think we both thought his time was coming - and I definitely felt a pit in my stomach that night.
He didn't suffer, and for that, we are grateful. That day was really the only day in his entire life that he refused to eat ANYTHING. He wouldn't even lick a bit of ice cream I put down in front of him. But again, I thought he was just having a bad day - not necessarily an "end of life" kind of day.
I am thankful that I discovered him - if my wife would have discovered him, it would have been awful. She is just getting over a prolonged illness, and I think it would have put her back to square one. I was able to process it and get my wits together before I came upstairs to tell her.
It is all still such a blur - our other dogs are certainly a bit "different" - Josh was an alpha dog in every sense of the word, and I think they are sensing that their leader is simply not coming back. They both went crazy when we put them in the car (the car we used to transport Josh after his death). Our 7-year old golden has been especially crazy since the death - he has always been hyper. He is now hyper x 500.
It never gets easier - little things keep popping up that make me think of him - he had a great life. Just wish, like all of us, that it could have lasted much longer!