I just lost my best friend in the whole world on tuesday night. His name was Red and he was a 7 year old Golden Retriever. He was having labored breathing tuesday morning when i got home from work so i decided that if it didnt get any better then i would take him to the vet to get things checked out on wednesday morning. when i woke up on tuesday evening he still hadnt gotten any better so i decided to stay home from work and i laid down in the floor with him and just held him and cried telling him how much i loved him. i couldnt wait any longer so i called the ER and they told me to bring him in so we got in my truck and off we went. when we got there he was pretty weak so i had to help him out of the truck and once we got his leash on he walked inside like a big boy. then we got into the exam room and the lady wanted to take him back to get him on oxygen because she said she didnt like the way he was breathing. he walked through the door and that was it. he collapsed and stopped breathing. my baby was gone. she said that he was bleeding internally so after some research i am coming to believe that it was cancer. i had never even heard of hemangiosarcoma until now. he was acting fine the day before. we even went for a ride, something that he loved to do. then he didnt want to eat anything which is not normal at all for him, he loved to eat too. anyway i was having a really hard time with this because he was my first dog that was mine and i felt so guilty that maybe i didnt do enough but i really did every thing i knew how to. he was happy the day before and then it was just so sudden. i miss him so much and so does his best buddy cody, the labrador retriever. Cody seems to be depressed and i just feel so bad for him too. i have been thinking of getting another golden already because i just love them so much and cody could really use another friend but how soon is too soon. their eyes just melt my heart or at least reds did. i kind of feel guilty for even thinking about getting another but i could never replace red. he will always be my baby boy.
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Hi Joey
I am so sorry your lost your best friend. Many of us on this forum have lived through the hell you are now going through. I don't have any magic words to ease your pain, I wish I did. Please go to the rainbow bridge section and post in the grieving part of it. There are many who have lost their heart dog to cancer and we all understand how you feel. Pictures of your boy when he was healthy would be nice. Feel free to post as much as you need to, we are all her to listen and help if we can.

Mike

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I just lost my best friend in the whole world on tuesday night. His name was Red and he was a 7 year old Golden Retriever. He was having labored breathing tuesday morning when i got home from work so i decided that if it didnt get any better then i would take him to the vet to get things checked out on wednesday morning. when i woke up on tuesday evening he still hadnt gotten any better so i decided to stay home from work and i laid down in the floor with him and just held him and cried telling him how much i loved him. i couldnt wait any longer so i called the ER and they told me to bring him in so we got in my truck and off we went. when we got there he was pretty weak so i had to help him out of the truck and once we got his leash on he walked inside like a big boy. then we got into the exam room and the lady wanted to take him back to get him on oxygen because she said she didnt like the way he was breathing. he walked through the door and that was it. he collapsed and stopped breathing. my baby was gone. she said that he was bleeding internally so after some research i am coming to believe that it was cancer. i had never even heard of hemangiosarcoma until now. he was acting fine the day before. we even went for a ride, something that he loved to do. then he didnt want to eat anything which is not normal at all for him, he loved to eat too. anyway i was having a really hard time with this because he was my first dog that was mine and i felt so guilty that maybe i didnt do enough but i really did every thing i knew how to. he was happy the day before and then it was just so sudden. i miss him so much and so does his best buddy cody, the labrador retriever. Cody seems to be depressed and i just feel so bad for him too. i have been thinking of getting another golden already because i just love them so much and cody could really use another friend but how soon is too soon. their eyes just melt my heart or at least reds did. i kind of feel guilty for even thinking about getting another but i could never replace red. he will always be my baby boy.

Hi there,
So sorry that you have lost your best friend I know exactly how you are feeling, we lost our golden Daisy 10 months ago and it devastated us, as have many others in the rainbow bridge section. Just hang in there, it'll take time for you to start to feel better. There's no set time when you feel ready to get another, some find it's the best thing for them immediately, others can take years. Hugs to poor Cody too, he must be missing Red lots!

Definitely stick around on the forum, we all understand your pain and it has helped me so much since losing Daisy having somewhere to come and write about her.

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Joey

I am so VERY SORRY about Red - it sounds like he had hemagiosarcoma-it can be very fast!

RED knew he was loved and no you could never replace him, but I know how much you and Cody miss him. My hubby and I have always adopted another dog right after we lost one, but everyone is different.

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Tonka & Tucker

SNOBEAR at the Bridge
Dec. 23, 1999-March 27, 2010


SMOOCH at the Bridge.
Feb. 14, 1999-Dec. 7, 2010

I am so sorry you lost your best friend. I too lost my golden Fletcher to hermangiosarcoma last month. This is how I found this wonderful forum. It was a very similar situation to what happened to Red....feeling fine and then all of a sudden wouldn't eat and had difficulty breathing, pale gums. The one comfort I get from this is that I didn't have to watch him suffer and slowly die from the cancer....apparently with hermangio, by the time symptoms present themselves it is too late to do anything. I didn't have to decide when was the right moment to say good-bye.

Everyone grieves in different ways....as far as how soon is too soon...it is up to you. I plan to get another golden in the summer due to timing but if I could get get one now I would. You are not trying to replace Red....you have a lot of love to give another golden and there is no shame in that so please be gentle on yourself.

So many people on this forum have been down this path and it has helped me to read their stories. They are wonderful.

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Carolyn in MA


Mom to Gracie (8 years young)
Fletcher, my heart dog at the Bridge (5/02-10/12)

I am so sorry, you lost your boy, know there are many here that understand.

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I am so sorry for the sudden loss of your dog. I know it feels like someone stuck a knif into your gut and keeps twisting it. It has been 5 months since my Allie died and it still hurts everyday. I just had to get another dog right away. For me and my other dog. It helps but doesn't take away the pain of the loss. It is just such an empty feeling. Time has begun to heal me but I still cry. I am just so sorry and I feel your pain. Hugs..

Very sorry for the loss of your beloved Red. I know that this loss is more terribly, because of his young age and loosing him so suddenly! I HATE Hemangiosarcoma.

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I am so so sorry for your loss, know that Red is running free and without sickness. ((Hugs))