Hey fozziemum. things are getting better and somehow things feel like it's been a dream. That gino was never real and things have been a dream. He's been away for the longest time (the only time). I still can't face the courage of looking at his pictures. That's great on your side about getting another dog! I still have a poodle at home and we love him just as much... he's helping us in a way. We are helping one another because I know my poodle Paris is just as upset. Yeah I seldom see fur anymore and I kinda miss it rolling all over my house... Miss my Gino boy.
I made this today and it kinda cheered me up I didn't know why. Maybe because I feel that ive really ease his pain.
i uploaded it on facebook but someone said it's silly... i felt so hurt as if they are calling my dog silly. Gino is my everything and dogs mean so much to me so how can my friend say that. She is out of her mind. She prolly doesnt understand what magical love our dogs can provide us. I still feel so painful. Does anyone know how Im feeling.
The 3rd month of him not being around recently passed. It's 3 months without my Gino boy...
gino, it's the 3rd month. we all still miss you dearly. still, people ask about you everyday... old neighbors, friends, doggie friends etc. everyone misses you cos you had such a great impact in our lives. it's difficult to accept that you are no longer here. sometimes I think that you are at my Grandma's place or so and that you will come back real soon. even though you are not here with us, it feels like you really are. there was once grandfather pushed the door open really slowly and the door glided open like how it did when you pushed it. it was such a familar yet foreign scene. it felt like a long time since I last saw it. for a moment there, mummy and I starred at the door and our hearts were beating so fast. we thought 'why this Gino love to push open the door but don't know how to close it'. we watched and waited so hard and thought somehow we would see a yellow head emerge. but it didn't happen. instead we saw our grandfather's elbow. it's one of the first time I was being confronted with reality that you are not here anymore. it was an awful feeling. it was piercing and painful- literally. it felt a hole has been punctured through my chest. I felt that in every part of my body. I was so sad and the tears couldn't hold anymore
I still feel you are here with us. one of my mum's fren told us that dogs are spiritual beings and they remain loyal even at their last breath. till the day they part, they are a shadow that follows you closely behind... as we walk, as we eat, as we sleep. day by day... to protect us like how they always do. till a day where they feel that we've finally let go, they will truly leave this place and reincarnate.
I miss you gino... I dream of you so much still. I know these are the times we are spending with one another at the rainbow bridge. together and forever never apart. maybe in distance but never in heart. I really wish there were visiting hours in heaven.