Join Date: Jan 2012
Location: Morristown, New Jersey
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My Angel, I miss you more than words can express
Last Monday was my last day with my baby, Duncan (he was 14 and 2/3). He died in his bed where we both slept next to each other. He was always within arms length so I could pet him if I awakened in the night. He was unable to get up by himself and needed assistance walking the last 3 months and I had just looked into getting him a doggie wheelchair. He ate his dinner that night which was a good canned food and I gave him some pasta with chicken broth which he loves. He was hungry. He peed and pooped outside and went to sleep. He did not seem in pain but was very tired. I awoke at 3:00 am and helped him turn over and went back to sleep. When I awoke again at 7:00 he was gone. The pain of his going was so deep I was tempted to follow him.
I am still in shock and feel an unbelievable emptiness in my home. He was my best friend, soulmate, child, family. He has kept me company as I care for my mother who is also very old (98) and has terminal health problems. I knew the pain would be coming but when it does it really wipes you off your feet.
I know only others who are suffering this loss understand.